I am doing better now. The last few weeks have been pretty rough. Between issues with the pharmacy, a lot of back-and-forth with my HRT provider, and some bad bouts of gender dysphoria, I have been struggling quite a bit. However, things have started to calm down towards the end of this week and itContinue reading “Week 38: Cresting the peak on a rough month”
Early in my transition, I had a lot of problems getting my hormones from my pharmacy. Prescriptions would disappear, estrogen would be “out of supply” for weeks, and medication would need to be “confirmed” every time I got a refill. Now, I am having trouble again.
Up until recently, I hadn’t considered facial hair removal. I knew that it was something that a lot of trans women did, but I didn’t see it as a serious issue. In recent weeks, I have started to change my mind.
It has not been a good week.
It seems that I have reached an odd stage in my transition where I don’t pass as a woman, but don’t exactly read as a man.
I had imagined a lot of possibilities going into my HRT appointment, but I never imagined it going like this. What should have been a straightforward appointment became a real mess.
On December 18th, 2019, I decided to start hormone replacement therapy and my transition. It can’t believe it’s been over a year. It feels like it was only yesterday that I made that life-changing decision. Looking back, it frankly amazes me that I ever decided to transition. Going through my journal entries from the time,Continue reading “An important anniversery”
My current transition challenge is making everything line up. I would like for all of the disparate parts of my transition: the HRT changes, voice training, hair, and the legal aspects to all be ready when I come out. It’s like I am hosting a dinner and want all the dishes and courses to beContinue reading “Week 32 update: Making it all line up”
For the last two to three months, I have been debating coming out to one of my relatives. I am reluctant to do so, it would run counter to my original plan of not coming out until around the 2-year mark. However, having someone who is aware of my situation would solve several small issuesContinue reading “To share, or not to share”
I have always felt restricted by gender roles. Growing up, my family was very conservative. As a “boy”, I was expected to be and act a certain way. I chafed against these restrictions growing up, and it took a toll on my mental health. Much of this in-congruence with male gender roles was likely aContinue reading “Gender roles, stereotypes, and cis passing”