I am doing better now. The last few weeks have been pretty rough. Between issues with the pharmacy, a lot of back-and-forth with my HRT provider, and some bad bouts of gender dysphoria, I have been struggling quite a bit. However, things have started to calm down towards the end of this week and itContinue reading “Week 38: Cresting the peak on a rough month”
Early in my transition, I had a lot of problems getting my hormones from my pharmacy. Prescriptions would disappear, estrogen would be “out of supply” for weeks, and medication would need to be “confirmed” every time I got a refill. Now, I am having trouble again.
I got a good haircut, and it has emotionally devastated me.
Up until recently, I hadn’t considered facial hair removal. I knew that it was something that a lot of trans women did, but I didn’t see it as a serious issue. In recent weeks, I have started to change my mind.
As a result of COVID-19 lockdowns and working from home, I have been able to keep my gender transition hidden without much effort. However, that state of affairs was never going to last forever.
I had a follow-up discussion with my HRT provider about my levels, and it has revealed the core problem in my treatment: we are drawing opposite conclusions from the same results.
It has not been a good week.
It seems that I have reached an odd stage in my transition where I don’t pass as a woman, but don’t exactly read as a man.
I had imagined a lot of possibilities going into my HRT appointment, but I never imagined it going like this. What should have been a straightforward appointment became a real mess.
On December 18th, 2019, I decided to start hormone replacement therapy and my transition. It can’t believe it’s been over a year. It feels like it was only yesterday that I made that life-changing decision. Looking back, it frankly amazes me that I ever decided to transition. Going through my journal entries from the time,Continue reading “An important anniversery”