November 2020 – Natalie's Transition Diary

Holiday Malaise

Like many people this year, I spent thanksgiving alone. However, this was not because of the coronavirus, I decided to not spend the holidays with my family for a different reason. I am not out to anyone and don’t have any plans to come out soon. In light of this, I decided not to visitContinue reading “Holiday Malaise”

Week 27 update: A month of higher dosage

It has been about a month since I started a higher estrogen dosage, and it appears to have been a great success. Increasing my dosage seems to have unstalled several feminizing effects of HRT. Unfortunately, I will not know how this new dosage has affected my hormone levels until my next HRT appointment, which isContinue reading “Week 27 update: A month of higher dosage”

The burden of doubt

Over the past few weeks, I have been plagued with doubt regarding my transition. This is not unusual, I have had my periods of doubt before. These doubts seems to return every time that I reach a major milestone in my transition. I had the same period of doubting when I hit 3 month. IContinue reading “The burden of doubt”

Looking back at the first six months: Mental and emotional changes

The unique nature of mental health makes discussing the effect of hormones on it incredibly difficult.

Looking back at the first six months: physical changes

A few weeks ago, I reached a significant milestone in my transition, 6 months of Hormone replacement therapy( HRT). This has led me to spend a lot of time reflecting on my transition and my progress so far. Many trans resources say that 6 months is roughly when many of the changes from HRT reachContinue reading “Looking back at the first six months: physical changes”

Anxiety and Elections

Warning: this post is about American politics. I have spent yesterday and today resisting the urge to refresh NPR’s election map every five minutes. I was prepared for the results but I wasn’t prepared for it to be this close. I am astounded that it is this close. It feels like a betrayal. At theContinue reading “Anxiety and Elections”

Week 24 update: a week of a higher dosage

One week ago, I increased my estradiol dosage from 6 to 8 mg in response to poor hormone levels. It may be early, but I have started to see some changes from that dosage increase.